*crying*

I am so tired. I get up and go to work. I get hassled by the boss. I get told I won't know if I have a job in a month. I get told my work isn't good enough. I get told I need to redo everything I've done because someone else can't think through what they want the product to be. I come home, I clean up after the roommate, I clean up after the dog, and I wait for everyone else to go to bed... I can barely get enough sleep anymore. Things sure have gone for the worst here. The only time I get to relax is after midnight or later and then it's back up at 6:30 the next morning to do it all again. I don't know what to do. I can't stop wanting to cry. I can't find a break. I want out. I want to go home. I want someone to turn to and lay by to tell all of it to. To tell me I'll be okay and that at some point the dog will learn to not shit on things.

I bought her some more toys today. They should keep her plenty entertained. I'm having a hard time getting her to not be afraid of everything. It's hard because she's so young that it's pretty much in one ear and out the other with most things. It's all psychological. Showing her that it's okay to be in the kitchen or in the truck.

I don't know. I'm going to break down soon. I lost it once and let it out to someone who doesn't need my problems. I feel really bad for that. It's just rough. I didn't know that everything could be like this. If I did... maybe I would've done something different. Something that would let me feel happy again. I don't even know when the last time that was...