A Perfect Night

Yeah... a perfect night. Even if she was there for a bit, it was still a perfect night. That blonde across the way... mmmm... love at first sight. Hehe. The broadway's not so bad now that I found my head again. Been feeling very clear on what's what. It's not about what I thought it was about, and some things are making 10 levels of sense again.

I'm starting to miss being in school. It's not so much the fact that working at the school was a great time, but I miss being around the peole I was around there. I miss having some direction in what I was learning. It's a lot easier when someone's telling you what to learn. These days I'm having to teach myself about so much. It's wierd though, because I thought that with being alone, my goal would be to find a girl (and when I really thought I did, she turned out to be a bitch), but now I'm seeing that there's things for me to do first. I've realized that I don't have much to talk about. I don't have as much focus as I used to. I haven't been as interested in things like I should be. We're doing a LAN on the 25/26th and I'm about as stoked for that as I've been for anything. I've been so out of gaming lately, it's embarrasing. And I haven't had the motivation to program anything. And yet I've found some kind of motiviation through the fact that I no longer feel like I need to be around a lot of people. I just am around a lot of people. I think I owe a lot to Phoeb's and alown and Jordan on this one. They've really been a big part of finding a place for me. Not exactly the wild drunker'd, but still able to have fun with them. Able to do my thing when they're not around, finally. I think that's why I miss being in school. Those times I was able to do what I wanted and not feel outcasted. Some kinda freaky feng shui for the soul. I should write a book.