Almost Forgot

Choke... interesting book, but I really need some dialog going to understand how I feel about the story. It's not like what happens in it is outside the realm of possible. I just... I don't know. I didn't really get into the beginning and the end went by so fast that I just couldn't sort through the meaning of things.

Bands You Need to Know About

Couple bands you people need to know about. Number one, I'm sure you already know, and that's Dropkick Murpheys. If you don't know, head down to your local Record Exchange, they'll be under "Underground". Pretty straight up Irish punk, only they use bagpipes rather than some of the more traditional Irish instruments of a band like Flogging Molly.

The other band that I know most haven't heard of is The Real McKenzies. Straight out the ghetto Canadian Scottish punk rock. Bagpipes in every song and some damn fine traditional music. Fuck the brits I always say. hehe...

Mom's b-day tomorrow. She's gonna freak when she sees what I got her. Absolutely gonna freak. You know how mom's are, they want you to spend your cash on yourself, but I figure since I can't repay the whole giving birth thing, the least I can do is hook her up with some tight home entertainment equipment. I'm not getting son of the year or anything, but it's better than par for me.

You Should Laugh Now

Paul

Wha?

It's good to see my state of mass confusion is still hanging around. Nothing like a night of breaking away at the safety bubble to really make a man consider the world in a new light. It's definitely not the place I thought it was yesterday...

Respect

I just lost a lot of respect for a guy I know. I thought he was better than this, and I told him this girl was far too cool to be such a dick to. Far too cool. And somehow this other girl ended up in my arms... which even though she's kind of that kind of girl... it was still cool. But that doesn't effect that the guy I thought was cool, is now very much not so much.

And in case you're wondering... wild turkey is not safe for the masses. So fuck off. And I'm really doing my best to remember the face of the other girl (whom I think may have decided I'm not worth anyone's time... being as how I can't really keep anything straight at the moment).

The Perfect Drug

Just threw on the Perfect Drug single (after watching A Clockwork Orange no less). Sure does take me back. Funny how no matter how hard you try to be the same ol' same ol', you always end up different from how you thought you would. I somewhat miss the days of parading around in my band T's acting like the world had it in for me and constantly worrying about who I might eat with the next day at lunch. These days I worry more about where I'll eat, how much it costs, and if it means I'll have to hit the ATM before buying rounds the next time we're all out. Seriously man, fuck all.

Here's a funny story for all the peeps (that's code for the two people that read this). Apparently whilst we were out on wednesday, a lovely lady decided I might be worth the wasted time to flirt with. Now seeing as how I'm an idiot and had taken severe actions to further that foolishness, I somehow managed to completely miss the occurance. That's right... I have absolutely no recollection of the events, what-so-ever! Yes, I remember the girl standing there, yes I remember her friend taking my seat post-journy to the can. And yet the proverbial hand on the shoulder and laugh at my nonsensicalness have escaped the fleeting grasp of my memory (for those keeping count at home, that means I inadvertadly blew her off). Tragedy indeed, sir! And then, in case my failure wasn't enough, alown tells me another girl whom I have but the slightest recollection of felt the need to inform him that I wasn't half bad to view that night... in my increasing stupor. Turns out she's a roommate of that sweetheart, Jenn. Somewhat akward I might say, but still good on the ol' ego. It all means nothing in the end (except to reaffirm my failures in life and to entertain all who partook of those moments), but it's a good story to share with my kids someday.

WOW

I really do feel for Blizzard on this. They've made a game that so many people love and trying to get behind, and they just weren't ready for it. The Penny Arcade guys keep talking about how they're pissed not because the servers are down, but because they want so much to be playing the game. I hope they get things sorted out soon. Blizzard is one of the few game companies that I have no problem giving my money to. They work hard on their games and it shows right through the shiny polish they make sure to put on them.

On Top

Right now, I'm on top of the world.

Anime

Samurai champloo is a damn fine anime. All the excitement of Cowboy Bebop, with the feel of a good samurai flick. Might have to get another of the DVDs for this one. Also finding myself quite partial to Wolf's Rain. Gonna be sad when that one leaves the CN.

Boring Friday

Let me tell you this. There's nothing worse than seeing someone cute, and then finding out that for the time being, the odds of you being in the same place at the same time in a manner that would allow for some kind of move... needs to wait until the snow melts. And not only that, but the person can't frequent the same nightly establishments as you. The damn pits, man.

In other news, the broadway is alright but it's kind of ho-hum. Nothing but shuffle board and pool, and since alown's crew don't frequent it just kinda stays dank. Being a third-wheel kinda person also dampens things, but the peeps are cool enough to make it not as bad as it could be. Cool peeps they are.

Work news now... I hate Solaris. I hate Solaris so much. It's stuck in 1995 and can't seem to find a way out. The ops guys where I work also suck the big one. They somehow managed to trash the CVS repository and fuck up the install of gcc on Solaris 9. I got gcc installed on Solaris 10 the second day I was using. That's fucked up, brother.

Boring People

Nothing worse than having 5 things compiling and nothing to do but wait... and everyone else is too busy to shoot the shit. Boooring...

Girl

I told alown I would do this, so I must. I wanna keep it a little on the down-low for some reasons I don't want to say, but are for everyone's good. There's this girl at a place I love to go. She doesn't know me, and is far too cool to give a crap. But something about her... I don't know what to say. Phoebe says I should just give it a try, and that just asking will score me points. I'm a wuss and all that jazz, but I'd really like to try. She's cool. Everything I hear about her and seeing her and everything adds up to everything. Worst that could happen is she says no and it's akward when I go to get some of my favorite food. I don't know. A friend of a friend of a friend in some way. I need a Sherpa to guide me on this. Man she's cool. And cute too.

On the plus side, Mulligan's was very good tonight. Started off a little akward, but by the end of the night, my gut hurt from laughing so much. Yes it's still early, but it's bed time for me. Maybe tomorrow when I'm not so tipsy, I'll run through everything again with alown and see if I'm just being stupid crazy. He said he knew I'd like her though...

Stop me if you've heard this one

Why does music sooth the savage beast? I don't know the answer to this - I only know the truth behind the rhyme. What once was a case of red rum, now jello on my tongue. My belly is full, and my beard is itchy. I ache with soreness and cough with delight. Nothing makes sense and I have a Dent in my head. Mish mash this, that, and the other. Really, I don't like fish but it's worth saying thanks and so long for it all.

I don't know where that shit came from. It dawned on me today that I have no idea how to play the guitar anymore. Funny thing is that I once had the skillz to pay the billz, but I'll be damned if the ol' brain has what it takes to create. Never has I guess. More to the point, I do like music and I have a decent understanding of how it behaves, I just can't seem to put 2 and 2 together to make 4.

I think I'm gonna grow my hair out. Alown says I should go for the Alan Cox Unix look, but I don't think I could handle keeping that clean. Had a hankering to change the color again, but I don't think that goes well in the professional world. Also seem to have learned that the problem with growing up, is that when you finally do and people expect you to get up early and be responsible all day... it doesn't leave much time to do fun things. Even now, at midnight, it's past my bedtime. Past... my... bed time. Think about that. Midnight. Past bedtime. Ugh...

Patience

I'm beginning to think I just don't have the patience required to get by in this life. I want whatever it is I'm supposed to get now. I got the education, I got the job. Now all that's left is to get married.

"A generation of men raised by women. I'm wondering if another woman is the answer we really need."

Yeah, I hear ya Tyler.

NeuroCast

Yeah, so NeuroCast rocks. It's like I never have to turn my Neuros off. We found an empty station that's in the middle of a lot of empty stations and tuned the home audio to that. I've got a chunk of my CD collection on the Neuros and I can pick any of them to play on the big stereo now. Absolutely brilliant these guys.

Audio Device

Did I mention I got my Neuros II the other day? Damn this thing kicks some ass. It's far too cool for a loser like me to own. I'm surprised it hasn't left my bitch ass out to dry yet. I was all rocking out to tunes on it before going to bed last night. Shit... word to your mother.

*cough*

Prescription cough syrup makes my head spin... hard to get work done when you just wanna lay down and nap... hahaha...

Sick

Damn it, I hate being sick. Can't stop coughing. Damn bastards going out with a cold and then giving it to me. Now I gotta stay home so I can be better for some more snowboarding... which is really the end goal of everything... to go snowboarding, that is.

In other news, I got my Neuros II today (that's the most badass open source, open firmware music player out there). It's charging right now, so tomorrow I'm load it up and see how it entertains me at work. Very exciting.

First Day

My first day of having an actual job is finally over. Not as bad as I thought. A little more hectic than other jobs I've had, but not bad. Should be an interesting time, and apparently there's a mighty fine taco truck down there. Tasty tacos at that joint for pretty cheap.

On the other hand... it's kind of rough to have a big day like that and no one to share it with. I need to start working on that...

Listen Up

Fuck health insurance. Fuck it right up its worthless waste of money asshole. And if that's not enough, find someone to give that bitch sloppy seconds. I have never in all of my life felt so absolutely shat on then when I'm dealing with the health insurance company. Like it's not hard enough being a student and dealing all the bull that incurs, but just to make everyone feel better, we'll tack on health insurance that would rather do what's necessary to avoid making a payment than to just help a brother out. I absolutely hate that.

On the other hand, snowboarding rocks your socks, falling hurts the genitals but reminds me why I'm alive, powder is my god, and maybe, just maybe for an hour or two the world just stops and shuts the hell up. I'd call that a success.

Ha!

Couple things to get through here. First off, going snowboarding in what I hope is about another hour from now. All the kids are back in school so it should be a good time. Hopefully I don't hurt myself (I have been kinda fat in the tummy lately). Secondly, when I have a pile of money, I need to remember to get them Inuyasha movies they advertise on the bumps (along with those I should probably get the Wolf's Rain box and the Trigun box just for good measure). Thirdly, work starts tomorrow and I have kind of an anxious nonchalant attitude about the whole thing. I'm looking forward to it, but it's the stuff I just do anyway so it's not like some big life change is going to happen (other than that previously mentioned pile of money I'd like to have).

Lastly... I don't know... I just wanna get up to the slopes, so you all kick it real smooth like and I'ma go dig into the Iliad to try and pass the time.

Poop

So... the best girl I seen all night... I guess she's a lesbian, alown sez. I don't know what to make of that. It's been an akward night. I really feel for alown, but at the same time, it's his own doing. But then this dude was seemingly doing things I'm not cool with next to me in the pisser, and of all things, he heads to the pooper after using the pisser. It's just been an akward night. What I need is some normal ass people to hang with for a while, I think. But I guess that don't exist, does it?

Fuck all.

Thinking

The more I think about it... I think I'd just like a girl that'd be nice to me. How sad is that?

Blonde

There was this blonde at Mulligans tonight. I swear to you, I'd buy her an island if she wanted and I never even talked to her. She was that good looking. So was that other girl that alown said was 18 and very much taken. The blonde was cuter anyway. That's why she gets the island I can't afford.

And also... the b key should not be next to the space bar on this laptop. It doesn't work quite right if I don't feel like concentrating. But for that girl, I'd have a keyboard of nothing but space bars. I think I'm okay with that.