We know she cheats at playstation!

Level 99 of bubble bobble and we're out of credits?

Whoa

And 5 minutes later I find this: Avenue Q.

What's the internet for?

Porn, duh.

Serenity

People are fucking morons. I think that explains everything.

At any rate, it's obvious this was meant to be the end. There isn't any real place to go and the end was a mad dash to get everything wrapped up. Great movie, great series, well worth plopping down the cash for all of it.

Home

My coat's hung up, so I know I'm home again. Canada was a really nice place to visit. The people I was there to see were a lot of fun to hang out with. The people on the way back to America were the typical American assholes, but I'm happy to be back with them again.

Oh... and Canadian money is some fucked up fake ass shit. A looney and a tooney? Fucking christ, man. I'd have some of their colorful dollar bills as well, but incompetent people had us use them for the cab ride to the airport. What a cocksucker.

Off to Canadia

In bed by 10, up by 4:30, off to Canadia by 7:30. Drunk by 7. Sweet.

ATHF

New aqua teen's dec. 2nd. The dvr don't lie.

Good People

My thoughts today go out to some people that have a special place in my heart. One of the few genuinely good people I've met has left this world for what is hopefully a better place. I find that at times like this I can't find any words that seem the right thing to say. The best I can come up with is that she was like mom to everyone she met and that's what I'll always remember about those lunch breaks at the tech office. Going to someone else's home and feeling more welcome than I get at my own relatives houses. Well... that and moving into the parklane apartments and enjoying all of the leftovers that would show up after a visit to Kuna. She was very much good people.

Canada

Guess who's going to canada. That's right. Me.

The boondocks

Best new show. Straight up.

Hi-Ya! Funny shit

"Chuck Norris invented the phrase "Hi-Ya", just from saying hello to people. He then lost a breakdancing competition to Vin Diesel. He's been pissed off ever since and now when he sees people he throws a variety of chops and says "Hi-Ya" as habbit. The slang caught on by Martial Artists everywhere."

The facts. This is why I love the internet.

New Website

Got myself a nice little website setup here. The link is up above. Obviously it's the same site it's always been, but with this big vacation coming up I'm gonna have a lot of time to sit around so it might get fancied up a bit. Might even set things up so I don't have to use blogspot anymore either, who knows.

Either way, good stuff.

New tires

And it's official, vacation comes to me 10/12-10/19. I'm gonna go play in the snow, bitch.

Megatokyo

As much good stuff as there is in that article regarding PA and PVP, I can't help but notice that they nailed how I feel about Megatokyo. I wish I could still hit that page and have a good chuckle.

Postscript

Learn to work with the market changes, be creative, and deal with it. You don't have a voice in the matter.

Mark Rein can eat a bag of shit

I don't know who all is following this twisted tale of consumer fucker-over-ism, but boy does it make me not want to give Epic anymore of my money. Their concern is that because used games are cheaper, people will be less likely to buy the newer copies (used copies generate no revenue for the game maker). Best Buy's concern is that they want money and people will happily pay that double digit profit margin. My concern is that in both cases, I'm paying too much for what will most likely be a pile of crap I'll only play once. Hence the reason I stick with Nintendo rather than these corporate cock stroke games that are packing so many retail shelves today.

Just an FYI to anyone looking to sell something some day... consumers can smell your bullshit from a mile away, they are smarter than you, and in the end *they* control your profit margin. Stop trying to screw us out of a buck, make things that are worth our investment, and when things don't go your way, stfu about it. No one cares if you can't afford that lamborghini you'd like to have.

Hail satan.

My Name is Earl

Gotta admit. It's funny. Jason Lee is the shit.

Layer Cake

Not so bad. Not so bad.

Surname

So here's something cool. Whilest at the Highland Games on Saturday, we came across a booth to look up Coat of Arms and such for surnames. I did a quick look to see if mine was in the book and then left. Upon a trip to my mom's place, I mentioned this to her with the reply of, "Oh yeah, you've got a huge Scottish background on your name", where my "name" is actually my grandpa's first name (which in turn is his great-grandfather's surname, very fucked up yes but it boils down in the end). Apparently Muir (the surname in question) comes directly from Scottland (this is 4 generations away from me and has been supplanted by Hahn, a very distinctly German name) and with a little research I came upon these excellent links:

http://www.houseofnames.com/coatofarms_details.asp?sId=&s=Muir
http://www.houseofnames.com/coatofarms_details.asp?sId=&s=Hahn
http://www.houseofnames.com/coatofarms_details.asp?sId=&s=Lillie

I don't believe the Coat of Arms for any of those are correct.

http://www.behindthename.com/php/search.php?terms=muir&nmd=n&gender=both&operator=or

So apparently I've learned some things I didn't know before about myself and my relation to Scottland. w00t.

I hate american tv so much

So I finally got around to watching the second season opener of the american "the office". Boy. Unbelievable. Apparently Steve Carell still has no idea what his role is. It also appears as though they're trying to copy the slow downslide of David Brent that worked so well in the british version. It's not working at all. Even worse is their attempt to not leave us feeling that he's as pathetic as we should. Are american's really that sad that we need protection from something so trivial?

Point is, they broke continuity by dropping the new girl from the end of the last season and they're still missing what made the british version so funny. Excellent.

All worries pass away

That article pretty much erases whatever fears I may have had. It's safe to say I'm on board for this one.

Rain and junk

So it's raining pretty good now. And I guess the patio above my patio has a bunch of holes in it because I stepped out the door and got soaked. It's nice though. I like the rain. I feel sorry for the people wanting a nice weekend in Hyde Park. Heh.

More to the point, I watched Kagemusha and it kicked ass. Then I watched Cabin Fever (got it during the HBO special) and boy-oh. It sucked. I mean... it sucked the royal ass. I don't know why they even bothered to make it. It's like some rich kid had some extra money and gave it to a buddy and was like "here, put two hot chicks in a movie... but make sure they die real early and only do side boob shots... and then have everyone die in poorly effected sequences that serve no real horror purpose". It was that bad. For real. But Kagemusha was way good. I totally recommend it. That and Ran. Cuz Kurosawa is the best.

Hrmph

So the revolution controller is known now. I don't really know what to think about it. Part of me wants to say ghey, but the other part thinks about playing metroid nunchaku style and while stilly ghey, it might kinda be fun. I dunno.... we'll see I guess. Maybe this will really be the time to move to sony.

You watch this now

A Scanner Darkly trailer. Holy kick ass batman.

Data recovery...

...sucks. And reiserfs doesn't do much to make it easier. Bleh.

It's just too easy

This was the title of a /. story today:

"Ohio Cracker Confesses to Attacks For Hire"

I must admit, I had a good laugh at that one.

4 million people can't be wrong

The best part of that article is the end:

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"It may continue to grow in China," Mr. Pachter added, "but not in Europe or the U.S. We don't need the imaginary outlet to feel a sense of accomplishment here. It just doesn't work in the U.S. It just doesn't make any sense."
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I don't know what the fuck place that dude's living in, but in the america I live in, I need all the help I can get to feel accomplished. You can't even get a college degree and feel like you've done something useful here.

Flogging Molly and some other stuff

Just got back from Flogging Molly (no, not that molly!), boy oh what a show. They really know how to get the crowd going. I wish it wasn't an all ages show though. Well, except for the kid they brought up on stage, that was cool. And that other little kid that was beyond hardcore, kicking it with the big kids in the middle. He was cool. But them other kids, they can fuck off.

But yeah, it was a good show. I hope they come back and play a bigger venue some day. But the other thing is that season passes go on sale this weekend for the holiday. Part of me wants to get one, but the other part knows it'd be a waste of money. I guess to tide me over I'll have to take my three 10% off coupons to best buy and have a nerd shopping extravaganza.

So lost and so confused

I had a good friend once tell me that I didn't deserve to be with another human being. I took this statement to heart as best I could. I looked at myself and what I was doing and asked myself if he was right every day of the last several months. I knew what I was doing was wrong and I knew that I needed to fix it. I did the best I could to do so and will continue to do what I can until I feel he should change his mind.

Tonight I watched one of the closest friends I've had in a long time treat one of the coolest girls I've met like absolute garbage. He did to her what someone would do to something they felt had betrayed them, even though she had done absolutely nothing wrong. I haven't felt this sad for another human being in some time. I wish so much to help him not be this way, because I know she really loves him and wants to have fun with him and love him. They are the two people that I feel really belong together.

I look at this and I think of myself. I see myself in his position and I wonder if I would do different. Could I really be a better person than that? I know I've been jealous and spiteful, but could I really sink as low as he did tonight? I look back at what my friend said to me... and I can only hope that what I've done to make myself better has at least put me above this rotten behavior in his mind. Perhaps not to the point that I deserve human companionship, but at least enough to deserve respect beyond what I witnessed tonight. I can only at best tear for this girl and hope that she'll understand that she doesn't deserve this kind of treament.

Sorry for being emo and all. It was just the wrong night to see this happen. But I'm excited for Flogging Molly tomorrow, I'm excited to see my friends that came over and played Magic with me, and I'm excited to see the Hollow Points on Monday. I'm also excited to be with my friends from BSU, but that's a whole other story for another time.

P.S. I love my dog. She's the best thing that's happened to me in as long as I can think of.

Of course they would

And wouldn't you know it, here come the holiest of musicians with their obligatory concert to encourage people to donate money. I'm gonna go out on a limb with an idea here, so stick with me. Let's suppose that instead of wasting people's time with a concert, we take just 1% of every album sold, just pennies out of every record sold in this country and we donate that to the Red Cross. How about if we take just 1% of every concert ticket sold and donate that as well? Could these so called "humanitarian's" survive without that small chunk? I guarantee that would end with a far more positive result than holding a free concert ever could.

What the hell?

Saw this in the news (regarding the hurricane mess):

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Some in Mississippi and Louisiana were frustrated with relief efforts.

"Many people didn't have the financial means to get out," said Alan LeBreton, 41, an apartment superintendent who lived on Biloxi, Mississippi's seaside road, now in ruins. "That's a crime and people are angry about it."
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Are people really that disillusioned in this country? They're given warning that a hurricane is coming to an area that we all know is below sea level and they choose not to leave, losing their homes because of it. People rally together to try and help them while they loot, pillage, and burn what remains of the city. If it weren't for the people who are truly suffering, I might feel bad about giving something to the Red Cross. It's absolutely disgusting to check the news and see things like this:

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"The mob could begin to rule in a few days if these people do not get more food and water," said August Pillsbury, who was in charge of the canteen.
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Or the President of the United States having to issue warnings such as:

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"I think there ought to be zero tolerance of people breaking the law during an emergency such as this, whether it be looting, or price-gouging at the gasoline pump or taking advantage of charitable giving, or insurance fraud," Bush said in an interview on ABC's "Good Morning America."
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Seriously people. Settle the fuck down. Get in line. Wait your turn. If you would just act like sane, decent human beings then maybe, just maybe you'll get the food, water, and evacuation that you need. It's either that or we can consider New Orleans lost to the ocean and let you rot in the filth you've decided to lay for yourselves.

vg cats is funny

Haha. I knew Mario was like that.

No he didn!

That is the funniest shit I ever done saw.

Weekend

Totally spaced this one, even though I meant to jot it down. Spent the day saturday with the fellas. First tried hanging out at lucky peak, but the boat motor burned up. Then tried to get a beer and pizza at old chicago, but joe forgot his wallet. Ended up at john's playing games and watching Saints and Soldiers (woulda been great if not for the mormon propaganda).

Point is, it was a blast. The story was better when it was fresh and I had it all worked out. What I learned from the whole thing is that you shouldn't forget your wallet when you say you'll buy the beer, make sure your gaskets are in good shape, and brothers in arms is a cool game.

And FYI, Joe and I and his cousin and some of his buddies will be starting a guild on gorona soon. So take that and shove it in your pipe. And then smoke it. And clean up after yourself when you're done.

Google Talk

Neat article there. I find the secondary problem being, I don't want to pass out my gmail address, so I'm kind of in a bind with this thing, seeing as how it's connected to my gmail account and all.

Sure do love Idaho

Guess the lion's even rarer now. Fucking morons.

Haha, cool

Met up with a bud on a different server last night. Started up a human palidan to preach the truth of the light and to save the last remnants of humanity from the grips of the undead horde. He's got a lvl51 gnome mage that seems to like leg humping. Helped me power level a bit so I can join his priest quicker. Might even start up a guild with him and some of his friends.

Pretty sweet this game.

Love this

I dunno what it is, but every time I see that, I el oh el. The minute I see the docs face and read "FACE!" I can't help but chuckle.

RTF

RTF is fucked up. Don't use it. Seriously. You will crash your OS.

Holy ass shit

The DVR records things you're not watching!!!! Hot damn it's the miracle I've been waiting for! Praise jeebus. And don't no one try to tell me otherwise cuz this is the bum diggity.

News from teh font

Went with the mom lady and the bear dog over to swan falls dam today. The idea being that maybe bear will teach yuki how to swim like she means it. So the good news is, she doesn't hate the water. The bad news is, she's chicken poop. At first she followed him right in, bam, off the dock and into the water swimming like a champ. I hadn't even got out of the truck while this was happening. Back on the dock she goes and bam again, only this time head deap into the muck on the other side of the dock. She barely comes up out of it, head covered in moss and fish turd. I had no choice but to drag her out of this one by scruff of the neck.

So time goes by and she decides jumping off of the dock is scary. We shove her in a couple times and she deals. It was amusing because she would literally go completely under water, even when trying to get in by herself. We ended up having to not use the dock and let her waddle out from the boat launch. It wasn't bad, but after about a half hour of this she gave us the up nose and began waiting for bear to bring the stick back rather than following him in after it. She would still float and swim and hang out in the water, she just wasn't as stimulated for the swim as bear was.

It was fun though. The weather was nice and the water was cool. I'm always amazed at how well she picks up on things. She swims better than bear when she's brave enough to get out there. She looks so tiny when her lumps of fur are plastered to her sides. Wish I had a camera to capture such an obvious kodak moment.

Stupid Questions

Why do kids need to be told choking games are probably a bad idea, particularly when played alone?

Why do people need a monetary value placed on the trees in this area? Is breathing oxygen just not good enough for them?

Why do we let the smart people choose not breed while the stupid people continue to pump children out like some kind of sick vending machine?

I swear to god. Maybe it'd just be best to let the kids hang themselves while we remove the trees. I think the collective IQ of this planet would actually have risen when it's all said and done.

A serious moment

One of the guys I work with has been watching his father suffer leukemia for some time now. I guess the folks upstairs have decided that today will probably be his final day. The same fellow also found out a while back that he has some cancer spots on his face, requiring surgery. It's been a rough time for him and yet he still makes his deadlines and cracks the wise with us here. I think it'd be cool if the few people that read this would keep him in mind for a bit. I'm not much for prayer or any of that voodoo, but I think a little good karma could go a long way to easing a pain I can't even begin to understand.

Thanks.

Ugh

So I happen to know the manager of Paylface. Got some free tickets to a metal show tonight. Ended up with a free shirt too cuz she kicks ass. Her husband also happens to be one badass guitar player (for Paylface). I'll tell you what though. I watched a show buddy take off early, and one of the most hardcore kids I knew in high school look at me and say "I'm too old for this shit" as we stood back after a couple minutes in the pit with dudes twice our size. I fucking hurt man. And I've seen shows. I was right there, up front for The Melvins and Tool, up front for Korn, up front for Marilyn Manson, up front for Weezer, so on and so on. I hurt like I ain't never hurt before. Kidneys ache, bones are creaking, and I think I'm developing scars all over my legs and feet.

But it doesn't end here. Just two more shows to tough out this week and I'm home free. Sweet.

Mail

It's official. I'm missing mushroomhead to see flogging molly. Woot.

DVR update

DVR updated itself this morning. We now have series recording, which I've been wanting since the first day I had one of these things. There's also something new coming along called iGuide or iView or some stupid thing with an i at the front. The mail mentioned watching something while recording something else. Not sure what this means without having a dual tuner, but we'll see.

Also got a new UI with the update. Kinda cool but kind of a step backwards into the land of the ugly. I like the new ffw and rw interface. Showing where you're at in the recording and all of that jazz.

Neuros 3

Don't know if I mentioned this back when I found out, but in July some of the specs for the Neuros 3 were released:

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After considerable debate and discussion, the decision was made to use the TI DM320 and Linux as the platform for the N3.

The primary reasons for this were

* Substantial price/performance benefits of the processor
* Substantial programming benefits of the Linux/ARM9 architecture, can recruit more application developers
* Compatibility of platform with other Neuros devices
* Substantial processing power of the ARM core of the processor obviates the need for DSP programming for most, if not all, audio tasks.
* Video capabilities still considered a nice to have in an MP3 player

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So in addition to the myriad of other cool products coming Digital Innovations (include the 442 video recorder/player) the N3 looks to be shaping up nicely. I also saw a post on the site about something like true open source development of the software. What that means is creative people who want to help make this thing the best it can be would be able to get developer boards to test write software on. You wouldn't find Steve Jobs doing something like that, now would you?

Now if I could just figure out how to get some sync software that will import playlists from the neuros, I'd be set.

Music

I think I'm having a love affair with music. There was some kind of battle and it involved bands. I got drunk and had fun with my friends, and even people I didn't expect to see showed up.

Ooh yeah... my ears hurt. And I have more screenshots from WoW I need post. Cuz I know you wish you were me. W00t and l33t and Leeroy and all that shit.

G-Phoria

Wow... what a... what a giant steaming pile of shit. I think I lost more brain cells skipping through this trash heap than i have in the last six months combined. How embarrassing to think that this is what killed TechTV. But hey, at least those jokes making fun of that Wilbur Valerma fellow were marginally close to amusing.

Two in a row???

I'm a fan of these two comics from CAD that just happened to hit one after the other:

Jack Thompson is an idiot
Meeting stones are for noobs

I gave a good hearty chuckle to both.

Iron Forge

Finally bothered to make my on over to Iron Forge tonight. Fucking long ass walk that one was. I took some screenshots of the trip because I thought it was cool (for the uninitiated, Iron Forge is the hub of the Alliance. sure, the dwarves start out right next to it, but for a Night Elf coming from not just across the ocean, but across the ocean and across the next continent, it's a pretty big deal to see it).

The journey begins when you take the boat from Auberdine in Darkshore to Menethil Harbor. Once there, it's about a 15 minute hike through the Wetlands (it took me a bit longer because I stopped to pick up some young croc skins for a quest, but the aspect of cheatah maybe balanced that out a bit). Once through the wetlands, it's about a 5 minute hike up Dun Algaz (and god damn if there wasn't an orc encampment sitting in the middle of that). Coming out of that in Loch Modan, it's another 5 minutes or so to get to the North Gate Outpost in Dun Morogh. On the way through there are some cool Dwarven guard towers and a long windy road. It's probably a good 10 minute hike over that road to finally get to the Iron Forge Gates. I decided to stop and check out the scenery below the gates. Once inside Iron Forge, I absolutely had to stop at the Auction House to see what I could bid on. I was out of money though, so I couldn't partake in the antics. Since I was really just there for a quest, I made my way to the forge where the gryphon master was so I could get a ride out of there. As usual, I was a few bucks short and had to sell off some of the low end food I'd picked up for Frylock so I could bum a ride.

I gotta say though, for as cool s Iron Forge is, that place is one laggy motherfucker. There had to have been a good thousand people running around in it, so it's somewhat understandable. It's just kind of akward trying to find your way around when things are skipping and jumping all over the place. I really feel for the dwarves who have major quests to complete in there.

I also found a cool waterfall in Ashenvale that I decided to jump off of:

Thinking about it
Free falling
Rough landing

It took all of my health when I hit the bottom, but didn't send me to the graveyard. Woot.

I chuckled a bit

This goes with that post right below this one. I really did chuckle cuz it's funny to imagine a video game molesting a kid who then goes on to be all creapy and wierd and anti-video game like.

Hi-lar-i-ous

Jack Thompson. What a character. Is he for real real or just something dreamed up by those crazy, bored Democrats to make themselves better appeal to the countless inbred social regects that keep 'causing' their losses at the polls? What a silly game.

WoW... again

Damn, what a game. What-a-game. Blizzard did a bang up job making sure you could sit and play for an hour and two and still have fun. 2 kudos for that!

Crazy

I'm just trying to picture how that game would go...

Old

The kids, they don't appreciate... When I was their age... If I could be 16 again, I'd...

My bones hurt. I can't keep up with these kids. Some good bands last night though. I just wish I could understand why even at their young age, they choose to stand around doing the head bop (this not including the 10 or so kids that were actually having some fun). I can kind of see it at the beer serving shows because who wants to spill their drink? Definitely getting too old.

WoW

So the latest PCGamer came with WoW and a 14 day trial. Naturally I signed up. I'm pretty much hooked enough that I'm gonna pick up the game at the end of the trial and let another 30 free days go by. I got me an almost lvl 10 night elf hunter running around on the moonrunner server. It's pretty packed so I've had a couple minutes of waiting in the queue, but otherwise not bad.

The gameplay's pretty good. Lotta monsters to fight and quests to take on. I'm pretty excited about getting my first pet and taking on some of the hunter quests before leaving the night elf island. I can definitely see how people get sucked into these things so easily.

Haha, yeah, it's a riot

Today's MTG.com question? What's the difference between a spin-down life counter and a 20-sided die. Are people really this incompetent? Jeeeebus.

Good god damn

Saw this today, regarding the new series, "Over There" about the war in Iraq:

“Television news tells you that war is heartbreaking and devastating, but you don’t feel that when you watch the news,” Gerolmo said. “Our show will give you a sense of what it is like to be in the war in Iraq. You will feel it. We will give you a powerful, gut-wrenching experience that television news can’t give you.”

I'm thinking, "Except for the part where after the hour is over, I get my lazy fat ass up and walk over to the refrigerator to pound down a pile of mud pie while the people doing the real fighting walk the line every second they're there." I fucking hate the media so god damn much. Bunch of money hungry shits not worth the air they consume.

Fucked it all up

Big surprise, huh?

Hahaha

So I guess I've been bored and reading too many articles today. I thought this was funny (this Martin Taylor from Microsoft talking here):

"And what is open source? It is interesting in how you define it. Is it in terms of source visibility? Then, OK, in Microsoft's Shared Source program, people can access up to 65 percent of source codes for our core products. And through the government security program around the world, governments can access even more of our source codes, if they choose to. So we're not an open-source company, and yet people can do that.

And when we talk about projects, things where you build technology and give to the community, with our Windows Install and Template Library, we have projects available today that make Microsoft technology open source. So is that what it means to be an open-source company? Or does it mean that you have technology licensed under the GPL (GNU Public License)? If that's the only definition, then I see a lot of companies that people call open source but aren't, because they're not licensed under the GPL."

I'm thinking, "No, asshole, open source means the source is open. Anyone can look at it. You can print it out and shit on it if you want." This really shouldn't be that confusing of an issue. Their shared source program doesn't make it open source not because he says so, but because I cannot see the source. Quite clearly this is cut and dry.

News (ugh)

I saw this in an article about the latest bombings in London:

"A memo was distributed to hospital employees indicating a suspect in the Warren Street incident had been spotted nearby, Sky News reported. He was described as being black or Asian wearing a blue shirt with wires protruding from the top, Sky said."

I can see how you might get the two obvious scapegoats confused. Clearly there aren't enough mexicans in London.

Interesting

So apparently the dropkick cd is tinged with a hint of animosity towards war. They covered an Eric Bogle WWI tune that I'd like to share:

oh how do you do, young willy mcbride
do you mind if i sit here down by your graveside
and rest for a while in the warm summer sun
i've been walking all day, and im nearly done
and i see by your gravestone you were only nineteen
when you joined the great fallen in 1916
well i hope you died quick
and i hope you died clean
oh willy mcbride, was is it slow and obscene

[Chorus]
did they beat the drums slowly
did the play the fife lowly
did they sound the death march as they lowered you down
did the band play the last post and chorus
did the pipes play the flowers of the forest

and did you leave a wife or a sweetheart behind
in some loyal heart is your memory enshrined
and though you died back in 1916
to that loyal heart you're forever nineteen
or are you a stranger without even a name
forever enshrined behind some old glass pane
in an old photograph torn, tattered, and stained
and faded to yellow in a brown leather frame

[Chorus]
did they beat the drums slowly
did the play the fife lowly
did they sound the death march as they lowered you down
did the band play the last post and chorus
did the pipes play the flowers of the forest

the sun shining down on these green fields of france
the warm wind blows gently and the red poppies dance
the trenches have vanished long under the plow
no gas, no barbed wire, no guns firing down
but here in this graveyard that's still no mans land
the countless white crosses in mute witness stand
till' man's blind indifference to his fellow man
and a whole generation were butchered and damned

[Chorus]
did they beat the drums slowly
did the play the fife lowly
did they sound the death march as they lowered you down
did the band play the last post and chorus
did the pipes play the flowers of the forest

and i can't help but wonder oh willy mcbride
do all those who lie here know why they died
did you really believe them when they told you the cause
did you really believe that this war would end wars
well the suffering, the sorrow, the glory, the shame
the killing and dying it was all done in vain
oh willy mcbride it all happened again
and again, and again, and again, and again

[Chorus]
did they beat the drums slowly
did the play the fife lowly
did they sound the death march as they lowered you down
did the band play the last post and chorus
did the pipes play the flowers of the forest

And they even wrote a song dedicated to a fellar that died in Iraq that was a pretty big fan of theirs. I guess they played a tune for him at his funeral. Touching.

New Dropkick!!!

I finally got around to picking up the new Dropkick Murphys today. Not half bad at all. Way more bagpipes than the other stuff of theirs I have. I'm happy with it.

And even if Tessie isn't the best, it is the official Sox song, so what ya gonna do?

Mmmmm

Obsidian Stout. It's even good for desert.

Ooohhh... and that Twilight Ale they've been running for the summer. Good god. I think I'll cry a little when Cinder Cone goes back on tap.

Hazaa

Good to see so many folks out last night. First the drinking crew, then the showin crew, and finally the late night crew. Always a shame such fun things have to end.

Development Model

Bit of a nerd rant here. In most development houses, things work like this. You have a TRUNK in your cvs tree. Main development goes here. As you develop, you tag so that you can go back to specific points in time. When you're ready to release, you branch from the TRUNK. If bugfixes are needed in production, you apply them to the branch, tag, and re-release. Later on you can merge the branch fixes back into TRUNK, which is where main development happens. Pretty simple, right?

Here where I work, we do things differently. Main development happens in branches that are merged into TRUNK at release time. Take a minute and think about this. Every time a merge happens, conflicts arise and things need to be re-tested. You're merging large changes on top of bug fixes rather than bug fixes on top of small changes. The tree becomes a stick, and when someone fucks up in TRUNK, development has to switch over to the correct model, which confuses everyone. To further this problem, everyone works on everything, so if someone had to make a branch for something and the development lead forgets about it, the person that comes in to add their new stuff may not add it to the correct line of development (with the correct model, it would clearly either go in the branch if it's a bug fix, or the TRUNK if it's a feature).

Honestly, I don't know why we do things this way. Our development lead is stuck in his ways and I wholy believe that half of the problems we have are a result of it. He's a really smart fellow, but sometimes it really sucks to be stuck doing things in a way that makes absolutely no sense.

Crazy

I have the vaguest recollection of riding a mechanical bull last night. How strange. Was good to see tmfjw again though. Gotta love that kid.

Oh yeah, and I guess London got blown up. Hurrah for the war terror. My sympathy goes out to all the people hurting because we couldn't be bothered to finish what we started. My sympathy also goes out to all those that will now feel even more pain as large governments rain more terror on their citizens in response to the tragedy.

Thank you Mr. Bush!

"I go to the G8 not really trying to make him look bad or good, but I go to the G8 with an agenda that I think is best for our country"

Only this man could so completely miss the point of this event. I am so grateful to be associated with this ridiculous banter. I can sure see how getting in with the Kyoto deal would be damaging to our economy and yet having everyone here in poor health and eventually dying early from the cancers polutants cause wouldn't. Gosh, what a trade off. Jackass.

Gah

So yeah... the vet did a shit job on that last bandage change. I'm now $150 in the hole for a $20 deal because they came off. Dog didn't even have to chew on 'em. And the damn emergency vet is wanting her to take some morphine and start some antibiotics. Fucking great. Gah.

Hot Damn

Flogging Molly - 9/2 @ Big Easy

I need a change of underpants now.

Shit son!

The Briggs @ The Venu - 8/3
Static X @ Big Easy - 8/13
CKY @ Big Easy - 8/19

Yeah. August is cool.

Bob the Betta

He just moved in between the gamecube and the bamboo shoots. Word.

The Andy Milonakis Show

What... the... fuck?

Ran

Yessir, another good one. Long as fucking hell though. Really gotta be in the mood to just sit and pay attention. Good thing I had them jalapenos on the pizza or I might just have to hit the shitter soon.

Samurai Resurrection

Yeah, so that was a pretty fun flick. A little odd and some things I didn't quite get, but who can turn down swords and demons? Not I. Not I.

Validation

"If you're a short person who envy's being tall, let me tell you...you're better off. Being tall really sucks sometimes."

Ha!!! Kurtz don't lie man. Kurtz don't lie.

Kill Yourself, Please

I love this: "a negative vibe against advertising in general". Haha. Yeah. A negative vibe against advertising. Golly, I had no idea. Even better: " He said if a similar tool could be produced for newspapers, it would not be accepted by consumers". Um, no. Sorry. If I bought a newspaper that had the advertising cut out of it, I'd probably have to shake the hand of whoever had the balls to do such a thing.

It's times like this that I like to reflect on the teachings of Bill Hicks:

"By the way if anyone here is in advertising or marketing... kill yourself. No, no, no it's just a little thought. I'm just trying to plant seeds. Maybe one day, they'll take root - I don't know. You try, you do what you can. Kill yourself. Seriously though, if you are, do. Aaah, no really, there's no rationalisation for what you do and you are Satan's little helpers, Okay - kill yourself - seriously. You are the ruiner of all things good, seriously.

No this is not a joke, you're going, "there's going to be a joke coming," there's no fucking joke coming. You are Satan's spawn filling the world with bile and garbage. You are fucked and you are fucking us. Kill yourself. It's the only way to save your fucking soul, kill yourself. Planting seeds. I know all the marketing people are going, "he's doing a joke”... there's no joke here whatsoever. Suck a tail-pipe, fucking hang yourself, borrow a gun from a friend - I don't care how you do it. Rid the world of your evil fucking machinations. I know what all the marketing people are thinking right now too, "Oh, you know what Bill's doing, he's going for that anti-marketing dollar. That's a good market, he's very smart." Oh man, I am not doing that. You fucking evil scumbags! "Ooh, you know what Bill's doing now, he's going for the righteous indignation dollar. That's a big dollar. A lot of people are feeling that indignation. We've done research - huge market. He's doing a good thing." Godammit, I'm not doing that, you scum-bags! Quit putting a godamm dollar sign on every fucking thing on this planet!

"Ooh, the anger dollar. Huge. Huge in times of recession. Giant market, Bill's very bright to do that." God, I'm just caught in a fucking web! "Ooh the trapped dollar, big dollar, huge dollar. Good market - look at our research. We see that many people feel trapped. If we play to that and then separate them into the trapped dollar..." How do you live like that? And I bet you sleep like fucking babies at night, don't you?"

hippity hop

So yeah, that was a good show last night. I'm not much for the hippity bippity, but I gotta get my white boy on sometimes, ya know? I can respect a band that shows up with real instruments to accompany the dj. Kinda strange that I love the industrial and metal bands, and yet its the hip hop band from montana that wows me, if only because they bring less of a front and a bit more heart. At least they're not emo, right? heh. And I'm sure there were some people at least moderatly pissed off at my being there, which brings a healthy smile to the ol' face. Plus the religious debates with TMFJW are always fun stuffs. I guess there's a metal band next thursday, so I'll get my comeupance in the end.

But anyway, there's a rollout tonight, which sucks. I guess that's what you get when you wanna earn the big money.

Fun Stuff

The dog goes in for surgery next thursday. That should be fun. Gonna spend the following week out of the public's eye to make sure she stays healthy. She's getting the triple treatment too, spayed, claws, and microchip. Expensive as all hell too. Nearly $400 for this stuff, and they say it'll change her metabolism somewhat so I'll have to watch what she eats a little better. Joy. But it keeps the puppies from spreading, so it's worth it.

Website

I updated my website to be all XHTML and stylesheets. It looks the same, but it's like way badassified now. Word.

Hot Damn

Sounds good.

Sweet Jerked Chicken!

Finally!!! I have soooo been waiting for this to drop.

Shoes

My damn shoes are rotting. Fucking rain. *sigh*

Hiro Protagonist

What a fucking great name.

Reading chair

Yeah, I got a reading chair now. Rock on. And I had a kickass night at industria, which rocks the socks off the cat that bought 'em. Now if I could just figure out wtf I'm gonna eat for dinner, I might just be set for a relaxing night off.

Hehe

Saw Fishbone last night with TMFJW. I'm not too big a fan of ska, but these guys were good. And they bring quite the crowd in lil' ol Boise. I guess tonight's 80's night at Mulli's. Kinda lame. Doubt they're gonna do the usual specials, but the PBR is supposed to be cheaper than $2 so it works out. Might be some people going that I'd like to see so I'm down.

Been digging the new Gorillaz album a bit. I think the brits do this whole kinda thing way better than us, and there's just something about a virtual band that I can get behind.

Some things I'm finding myself thankful for:

• Music
• Kung Fu
• Anime
• Industria
• My dog
• Work not sucking quite so bad
• Living alone
• Free food
• Not being dependent
• Good books
  

I think things are quite good. Happy and healthy.

Best Buy

So yeah, I got $45 in Best Buy rewards today cuzza my laptop. 2 DVDs and a CD for $14. This just confirms my original theory that if Best Buy were to sell food, I wouldn't leave it.

The hell?

So the point of establishing state laws is so that the federal government can come in and overrule them? I'm sorry, but the feds have no right to tell states that medicinal marijuana is outlawed. That isn't how it was setup and that shouldn't be the way it becomes. If I have no reason to choose what state I live in, then why bother with them?

New books

Picked up new books the other day:

Saviors of Kamigawa
Snow Crash
Cryptonomicon

Should keep me plenty busy for a while. Still have to finish up the dark elf trilogy, but the first two of those three are pretty short and should be easy to blaze through. The last one is a hefty sucker that's gonna take some time. I stll have some Dan Brown books to get to. I'm such a lazy bastard like that.

A monumentous occasion

The matrix is finally on its way.

Moved

Yeah, so I moved. It's done. I'm sore as shit and riding my bike back and forth from work twice a day doesn't help. Whatever though, cuz this place is way better than that other dump. No noisy kids getting arrested at 1am, lotta friendly pet people to help me out, space for the dog to get her chew on, and I actually have my own room again. So far the downsides are: no pantry, no doorbell, no bbq's allowed, and for some reason things really like to flood outside in the grass, which wouldn't matter if it weren't for the fact that the dog likes to piss and shit there. I guess they're fixing that though, which is casually explained by the giant pile of dirt still in my parking spot.

In other news, I'd just like to reinforce that Alice in Chains is a great damn band. Jerry Cantrell is an amazing song writer and Layne Staley was a hell of a singer.

Oh... and yeah... it came up today. Paul. Funny shit.

Sore

I... am so sore. 75% of my crap is moved, at least. Down to the food and the shit that's been sitting a closet for the last 10 months. Gotta make this last midnight run and then it's off to bed. This way I can up and finish before I need to go water plants at my mom's... cuz she's enjoying her vacation. Sons a bitches, all y'all.

AJAX

Damn. That shit is tight. Easy as hell to work with. It's like the internet just hit 2005 and I'm only now finding out about it.

Python Challenge

It's more fun than a barrel of monkeys.

Hoowah

My dog's been found. i'm happy.

Bleh

My dog ran away. i'm depressed.

Oh shit!

Samurai Champloo on cartoon network! Too bad the dub sucks. Great series though, I need to get them other dvds in.

Also got the first set of clone wars cartoons on the dvr. Rock.

I need a new nose

The one I got hurts and is full of dried blood. I jigged, man. I jigged a long time. I just wanna lay down and go back to sleep now.

Right Where It Belongs

See the animal in his cage that you built,
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye,
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built,
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart,
And it's all...right where it belongs

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?

What if all the world's inside of your head?
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods all the living and the dead
And you really oughta know
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods,
Are you hiding in the trees?

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?

The Way It Should Be

Yessir, this is the first step to the rest of your life.

Assholes

No... I was wrong. It's not her... it's him.

Wankers

Stop with your fucking games. That's all I gotta say. Just fucking stop.

Funniest Evar

Read that link. Now. Cuz it's funny. And cuz I told you this is what would happen long ago (yeah, it's archived). So stoopid.

Tweaker

I'm in love with this band, for sure. Chris Vrenna is such a fine musician. Cauterized off of 2am wake up call has to be one of my favorite songs in the history of all songs ever. w3rd.

Fuck

Eat shit bitches. I feel better now. Bonus in July. Rock. Gotta go break something.

What pain?

My nuts itch and my dog's farts smell really bad. What do you know of pain? Fucking emo kids.

WTF?

Yeah. That's right. WTF?

Bento is good.

cvs update

cvs update
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cvs update
cvs update
cvs update
cvs update
cvs update

ack...

Fall Into Sleep

dreams of earthquakes,
dreams of hurricanes,
dreams of pouring rain,
dreams of tidal waves,
(to wash us all away).

dreams of guns blazed,
dreams of fire rage,
dreams of swollen graves,
dreams of hollow pain
all gone.

(no more fallen,
no more enemy,
no more casualty,
no more dream)

fall into sleep-
fall into me-
i have a dream,
but nobody cares,
and nobody wants to listen.
fall into sleep
fall into me
hang onto a dream
that nobody wants
nobody cares anymore.

dreams of morning grief,
dreams of disbelief,
dreams of tragedy,
dreams of our defeat,
(to take us all away).

dreams of fidelity,
dreams of inner peace,
dreams of loyalty,
dreams of unity
all gone.

fall into sleep
fall into me
i have a dream,
but nobody cares,
nobody wants to listen.
fall into sleep
fall into me
hang onto a dream
that nobody wants
nobody cares anymore.

angels of winter,
fall with broken, burning wings.
are we dead inside?
are we blind?
can't keep moving forward,
back burns with closed eyes
we're losing sight,
all lost inside.

no more fallen,
no more enemy.

fall into sleep
fall into me
i have a dream,
but nobody cares,
nobody wants to listen.
fall into sleep
fall into me
hang onto a dream
that nobody wants
nobody wants
nobody cares
nobody wants
nobody cares
anymore.

...all gone...


Great song, great band.

Birfday

Happy Birfday Caleb!!!! Seriously dude, you don't have any idea how happy I am for you and Phoebe. Honestly, I really hope that with things taking their seperate ways that you and me can continue to be good friends. I'm happy your pre-birfday was good and fun for you. That's the way it should be. I know that I need some time to just live on my own and do things my way for a while, but I absolutely love you guys. No matter what happens, I got your backs and no matter where I go and no matter what happens, you both are welcome any time.

Happy birfday brother!

Goodbye Love

I don't know what else to do. Maybe in another life.

Jackpot

Had myself a much needed vacation this weekend. Went off to Jackpot, NV with the family. Played a couple slots to get warmed up (never been in a casino since turning 21) and then watched some blackjack while the family was at a show (thank god I didn't have to go). After about 15 minutes, I decided to push for a seat. Sat down w/ $40 and after about 2 hours had to get up and walk off... with $17. Shit. So I came back to the table (it was a $3 table, FYI) a little later and played a few more hands (well, about 3 or 4 hours of hands anyway) with a couple of the family. Had $30 at the start of that one... left with $75. Fuck yeah. Made $5 on a night of 21. I really, really wanted to get in on the hold 'em tables, but I was a bit scared and wanted to watch a couple rounds to see how to get in on a table. I think next time I go, I'll pay the $20 buy in on the $3x$6 table.

Overall, it was a really good weekend. I missed Yuki and from the look of things, she missed me too. Phoebe took care of her for me, and I tried real hard to bring her back something nice in payment. The problem is that the gift shop in Jackpot sucks. So I took advantage of the no sin tax in Nevada and picked up 3 giant bottles of liquor for everybody. Can't go wrong with some good old fashioned booze.

*crying*

I am so tired. I get up and go to work. I get hassled by the boss. I get told I won't know if I have a job in a month. I get told my work isn't good enough. I get told I need to redo everything I've done because someone else can't think through what they want the product to be. I come home, I clean up after the roommate, I clean up after the dog, and I wait for everyone else to go to bed... I can barely get enough sleep anymore. Things sure have gone for the worst here. The only time I get to relax is after midnight or later and then it's back up at 6:30 the next morning to do it all again. I don't know what to do. I can't stop wanting to cry. I can't find a break. I want out. I want to go home. I want someone to turn to and lay by to tell all of it to. To tell me I'll be okay and that at some point the dog will learn to not shit on things.

I bought her some more toys today. They should keep her plenty entertained. I'm having a hard time getting her to not be afraid of everything. It's hard because she's so young that it's pretty much in one ear and out the other with most things. It's all psychological. Showing her that it's okay to be in the kitchen or in the truck.

I don't know. I'm going to break down soon. I lost it once and let it out to someone who doesn't need my problems. I feel really bad for that. It's just rough. I didn't know that everything could be like this. If I did... maybe I would've done something different. Something that would let me feel happy again. I don't even know when the last time that was...

Frustrated

Where are you supposed to run to when both work and life are frustrating you?

Name

And her name will be, Shane's Yuki-tala (my snow wolf).

What?

A world of shit managed to pile up today, and I drank way too much far too fast. I let more out than I've let out in any case that I wasn't sick as shit. It's sad because I really, really love The Real McKenzies. Too much has just gotten itself lodged into me. I don't know what to do about all of it. It's just piling up and in the end, has no where to go. I've no one to turn to. No one to off-load a little bit onto. No one to listen at those times that I need someone to listen. No one I care about that much. Not that I have any room to bitch... it's just turning itself into a horrible mess. No one to blame... no one to shame....

Puppy

Got myself a puppy today. Husky/wolf mix. Cute as you done ever did see. Has a case of the worms though, which sucks. She's going to the vet tomorrow for her first look at. Did some figuring and at the rate things are going, the living space should grow decently with her. Even with the fighting over whether we get to keep our jobs or not, it should work out okay. I've lived off far less than I would make at the bottom of what I do with enough to spare.

I been tossing around some names and I'm thinking I might call her Suki. Possibly Aiko (if I knew how to pronounce that one exactly). http://www.kanjilearn.com/jws/character.php is a good place to find out what they mean.

Books

Sale at library. Half off. So many books. $6. Cheap as hell. Missed time at Ha'Penny. Time for bed.

Bike

I fucked my bike up.

Puppy

We saw the cutest puppy last night. 3/4 wolf, pure white, cute as you ever seen a puppy be cute. She was loving on phoebe's every time they were together. The poblem is that she's in the hands of a real asshole. Like going to jail soon, puppy protection material asshole. He wouldn't let us take her off his hands while he's away, but he's giving her to his girlfriend when he goes. Thing is, his girlfriend don't really seem to like him much (he is an asshole, afterall). So maybe we can sweet-talk her into letting us have her when he's gone. Or possibly his parents will take the dogs and just "let her go" one day. If all else fails, we're going to steal the dog. And by steal the dog, I mean we're going to take the dog to a safe home where she belongs.

In other news, TMFJW got a job at the Ha'Penny. Rock on, have a Guinness for the man. Real McKenzies on tuesday at the Bouquet, don't miss it. If you do miss it, you're the spawn of satan and you should consider finding a new hobby.

pfft... jokes on you asshole

Saw a midnight showing of Sin City at Edwards last night. God damn is that movie good. Violent as all hell, and stylistic film noir at its best. Definitely a buyer when it's out on DVD. Left me tired as crap today, though. Damn near fell asleep during a couple minute break at work. Well worth it in the end.

Been fighting to get wireless working on my laptop. I guess this is just another area that Linux is losing the battle. It works just dandy on open networks, but when I try to set the psk for our network here, it poops. Something about not allowing keys to be set. It's some real bullshit, let me tell you. The real kicker is that the damn thing has to use the windows drivers through ndiswrapper. I could kick someone.

Last thing, found some copies of MJK singing with the remainder of Alice In Chains at a benefit in february. They're not bad, but definitely nowhere near the quality that Layne put out. It's sad to think about what Alice in Chains would be doing if Layne hadn't gone out. But at the same time, if he hadn't gone out, would the music have really had the same impact? It's hard to listen to some of those songs when you think about what he was going through.

Hair, The Musical

Hot damn! Phoebe is da bomb! She helped me fix up the hair tonight. It didn't come out quite right, so we just blacked it and bleached some highlights. A good thick coat of blue over that and voila, exactly what I was wanting. Hopefully it doesn't take a dive in the shower tomorrow. It's got a couple light spots, so we'll probably go over it again in a bit after it fades some. I'm diggin' it though. Subtle, yet noticable. She did a hella awesome job for sure. It's like I'm not 2 years from the quarter mark again...

Also finally putting Gentoo on the new laptop. Excited to finally have that going. Hopefully setting up X and the wireless don't give me too much grief. The nVidia drivers for windows don't support the mobile chipsets (bastards) so hopefully they had enough foresite to realize that no manufacturer is going to release drivers for Linux.

And tomorrow's Wednesday (well, today's wednesday, I guess, but you know what I mean). So it's gonna be $2 draughts and wells at Mulli's. It's been kinda nice taking a break from all that for a bit. It feels like Wednesday's have some meaning again. Hopefully a good round of drunken blogging will occur tomorrow to prove that I am indeed, an asshole. Not sure if we'll make $1 draughts at the goose thursday though (god damn it I miss my Black Butte from the tap!). The weather here's been some kinda shitty lately. Raining every day and cold as a dead man's un-beating heart. Good news though... Bogus is gonna open again on Friday. With all the new snow... shit... it's gonna be one sweet ass ride. Probably going to meet alown up there after work if things work out. God damn I miss snowboarding.

Again

Hollow (Constantly Consuming Mix) is also beautiful.

A Perfect Circle

3 Libras (Feel My Ice Dub Mix) is such a beautiful song.

Good Shit

Picked up the latest offerings from A Perfect Circle yesterday (okay... so I'm several months behind... I had to get up on my scotish punk before I could get back to my prog rock). I must say, I'm only somewhat down with eMotive. Yes the anti-war theme is good, yes the cover of Imagine is phenominal, but the rest just kind of seem "okay". The worst of them all is the cover of When The Levee Breaks. I love that song something fierce, and I take great offense to the tragedy done to it. aMotion, however, is fucking awesome. The commentary on the DVD is really good and insightful and the remix album is superb. I really like Danny Lohner's work on that. He was damned great with NIN and he's damned great in the remix seat.

Also picked up the Bill Hicks DVD while I was at it. That's over 3 hours of the man opening your mind to the truth of the world around you. I'll tell you this much, it's one thing to hear the man, it's another see it. You really get a feel for how passionate he was about his material when you see him working it. I was hoping for a bit more variety and possibly some clips of him on David Letterman. I know it costs money to do things like that, but I've got my fingers crossed that another DVD is in the works.

Lastly, ol' Phoeb's helped me change the hair color. I wanted it to be kind of subtle this time since I'm a working man now. It's a cool black color with some blue hints and my natural brown mixed in. It looks pretty good right now, and I'm excited to see it in the sunlight tomorrow after it's been washed a bit. The hope is, it'll look mostly black under shitty work lights, and then when I step outside it'll be like "wtf? blue?" Hehe... I do love me some blue.

Oh... yeah... one other thing. Grocery shopping sucks, cleaning sucks, and the shit they put on the tv these days sucks. Since when did it become acceptable to take a great show like The Screensavers and chop it down into the pile of feces they call Attack of the Show? Fuck that.

Oh Yeah

Before I t0tally sober up... The Real McKenzies rule your fucking shit, and if you're not at the Bouqet on the 15th then you're either lame as shit or you're a minor (in which case, grow the fuck up and sneak in!).

tHANKS.

Babysitting

Interesting night of making sure Jordan was okay. I'm not really good at things like this, but I hope what little I could contribute was okay. Major props for alown doing all he did He really takes care of the man. Poor Phoebes challenged the wrong man to a game of having some 151 as the loser's reward. She got a bit sick. I feel bad, but alown's got her covered.

All in all, not too bad of a birthday for the man. I wish TMFJW wouldn't have gone so fast though. There was a lot of fun to be had, but instead it ended up with us hanging here until he sobered up a bit and we got too tired of taking care of him. I hope my birthday went a bit better, and I hope alown's does as well. It's cool to get hammered, but the point is supposed to be to have fun with your friends, not to just pass out and get the night over with.

Always With The Updates

Just a quick catch up here. Did the ol' LAN gig last night. Was supposed to be an all nighter lasting until the wee hours of today. That didn't work out. I ended up crashing at the friends house who hosted. Helped him get his stuff moved back in before taking off. It was actually a lot of fun catching up with the guys I haven't seen for the last couple months. I really look up to a lot of the way they've got things together. Gets me all excited for owning a home and such experiences of adulthood.

Tonight's TMFJW's b-day. Sons of bitches won't call me back though, so I don't know what's going on. We were going to get him all set up with some home made chicken pot pie and some good hooch. Hopefully I get a call or text soon so I can know where to be and when. Otherwise it's going to be a night of reading books and surfing the net. Not that I mind that (I'm beginning to really miss some of my alone time that doesn't need to be spent cleaning the god damn apartment), but it'd be nice to celebrate and know that I don't have to be to work tomorrow (don't get me started on thursday's being late for work).

Oh My God

Wow... just wow.

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The New Deal

Here's the deal. Part of what makes the place we live so great, is that I have the choice of living in whatever state I want. I can pick and choose from a myriad of ways of life to find what suites me best. No single entity has the power to tell me what to do, because I have the right to move to a different state. So if the court powers in one state decide that something is a certain way, then that decision stands and should *not* *ever* be trumped by the whims of a few power hungry politicians. I know what your religion says, and I don't care. The woman is dead, let her go. Give her husband some piece of mind and stay out of their lives. The federal goverment has no place in dealing with these things.

Laptop

New laptop, bitches. Eat it.

Word of Advice

Don't ever read the archive of your blog just because you're too sick to get done the shopping you need to get done. It can only lead to a missunderstanding of what "you're about" and "who you are" and other such cliche remarks about the life and the universe. Things are always out of perspective when you're sick anyway. Nothing seems quite right and it usually takes a couple days to put it all back in order.

Bastard

So after a wonderul night at Mulligan's wednesday, I come back to prepare for the big St. Patty's party at the ol' apartment here. Then what, to my surprise, do I find waiting in my belly? The oh-so-grandiose stomach virus that's been passed around the locals lately. So instead of boozing it up and enjoying myself at what i hear was one hell of a smash, I spent the night sleeping in the spare bead at my mother's. Hell. A little bit of hope though, that my having puked all over the living room and bathroom throughout the morning got someone I don't know a little bit sick.

In the end, ol' TMFJW took me on a dandy little trip to some hot springs up in the mountains today. Not a bad way to come down off a horrible sick. Funny thing is, from what I'm told, TMFJW didn't bring jack to the party... yet he walked off with $4, a case of bear, and 1/4 bottle of decent whiskey. Not a bad haul for the man. Not a bad haul.

A Perfect Night

Yeah... a perfect night. Even if she was there for a bit, it was still a perfect night. That blonde across the way... mmmm... love at first sight. Hehe. The broadway's not so bad now that I found my head again. Been feeling very clear on what's what. It's not about what I thought it was about, and some things are making 10 levels of sense again.

I'm starting to miss being in school. It's not so much the fact that working at the school was a great time, but I miss being around the peole I was around there. I miss having some direction in what I was learning. It's a lot easier when someone's telling you what to learn. These days I'm having to teach myself about so much. It's wierd though, because I thought that with being alone, my goal would be to find a girl (and when I really thought I did, she turned out to be a bitch), but now I'm seeing that there's things for me to do first. I've realized that I don't have much to talk about. I don't have as much focus as I used to. I haven't been as interested in things like I should be. We're doing a LAN on the 25/26th and I'm about as stoked for that as I've been for anything. I've been so out of gaming lately, it's embarrasing. And I haven't had the motivation to program anything. And yet I've found some kind of motiviation through the fact that I no longer feel like I need to be around a lot of people. I just am around a lot of people. I think I owe a lot to Phoeb's and alown and Jordan on this one. They've really been a big part of finding a place for me. Not exactly the wild drunker'd, but still able to have fun with them. Able to do my thing when they're not around, finally. I think that's why I miss being in school. Those times I was able to do what I wanted and not feel outcasted. Some kinda freaky feng shui for the soul. I should write a book.

Updates Abound

Not much to report at the moment. Just a lot of getting over being sick going on here. Seems like everyone I know's sick. Family members are sick, friends are sick, I'm sick. Guess it's that time of the year though.

Been digging into Descartes Mediations on First Philosophy again. I didn't really give it the treatment it deserved on the first go around. I'm a little more familiar with the context used to deliver the premise of the work. It didn't really occur to me the first time (this being a time in which a professor is telling me *how* to read rather than *why* to read) that it's really just a mathematical treatment of the question of the almighty. I think after so many theoretical CS classes, this method of breaking things down to the fundamentals and then building a case around just those indivisible pieces will be much clearer to me. I may not necessarily agree with the end result, but I find it hard to believe that many have grounds to pose any clearer an argument. Should be good.

Read this, and shit yourself

"Iwata also announced that Revolution would feature backward compatibility with GameCube, which means that consumers will be able to play GCN software on the next console.

In addition, the Nintendo president said that Revolution would be Wi-Fi compatible out of the box. The revelation goes hand-in-hand with the company's newly announced DS online network, which enables owners of the handheld to connect to the Internet wirelessly and play against each other."

That's right. Shit yourself now.

House Full of Sick People

Nothing worse than a house full of sick people. Alown's got the hershey's and I got a case of the sinus shits. Gonna be a fun night of drinking water at mulli's tomorrow. Hopefull we don't pass along what we got and end up doubly sick. I been packing in so much water lately that I can't hold any of it anymore. Throats still dry as hell, but it just goes right through me. Sucks, I tell ya. Oh well, I guess.

Cold Mountain is a fine movie. The mushy stuff is acceptable, to a point, and Natalie Portman is perfect as always. Good story overall. Nothing new out of it, but the comparison between love and war and the duality of men and women in such a time are well put, as always.

Hehe

Oh yeah, and Alown's a rat bastard who couldn't be there because he's doing God's work for the tards. I picked up a CD though, so he can partake in a kind of 3rd party way that isn't really like being there at all. Much love bro. Stop kicking babies and maybe you'll eventually getta hang with the crew again.

Ha'penny

Oh my god. We went and saw the Gaels at the SPEC tonight. What a fucking show. Straight up irish tunes all night. And then get this, the blokes decide they're gonna head to the Ha'penny and jam with the locals for the night. So being the stand up bunch of bastards we are, we head on down. What an amazing night. You can't even believe how good these guys are. Playing along with the local Irish jam band that plays every sunday. Good buncha guys they are. Their piper went so far as to play a tune for TMFJW's passed mother. It brought a tear to our eyes. Such a sweet jesture from a bunch of really cool fellas.

And speaking of the Ha'penny. Some nice looking ladies at that place. Waitress' and non-waitress'. There was a girl that's the girl of a friend of TMFJW who was looking quite splendid. This friend of TMFJW is going to be showing me a bit of the ol' Japanese in exchange for an NES game I own. What a stand up guys this one is. Lotta fun too. TMFJW's jiggin' partner, he is. And there was a lady who, I don't know, maybe I'm crazy, but I think she was taken aback by your's truly. It may be the many pints of Guiness talking, but I was for sure she had a couple quick looks. As per-usual, I'm a chicken shit bastard with no glory, so I couldn't make any smooth moves. Maybe next sunday we'll head back down and I'll find her and be like "hey... awesome music you guys have here" (cuz I think she works there).

Anyway, great fucking night. Much thanks to Phoebs, TMFJW, Sam, and Tammy for the kick ass time. And of course, many thanks to the fine fellows and Guiness and God bless The Gaels and all the chaps playing tonight. I haven't had this much fun in such a long time. Look forward to doing it again!

Flogging Molly

I don't know why... but these days I seem to understand Flogging Molly just a little better than I did before.

Goose!

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Birthday

Not a bad way to spend a birthday. TMFJW got me hooked up real nice and good. It took me a bit to warm up, but once he found me the girl I wanted... mm.... she put on a good show. Not to say the others weren't as good... but come on. She was such a sweetheart for such a nervous, shy fellow like myself.

By the time we got home, I was ready for bed. Well, the night kind of started off with being ready for bed (the god damn jelly man... always holding me back), but once that wore itself off in the first couple minutes at the Rhino, things got much clearer. For a while anyway. Coolest thing (right next to the girl I mentioned before) was when alown's girl got herself right up there with the money, and the chick went under her shirt and all over. Hot damn! hehe...

So now it's back to the grind. Grinding away and the like.

Helluvaday

Got me some more Real McKenzies and some more Dropkick Murpheys. I guess the McKenzies have a show here in April. Gonna have to get the crew together for that one. Also got me a practice chanter for a little try at the ol' pipes. I gotta say, that shit's rough. Excited about it, though. Gonna make alown's squeeze boxin' look like pansy droppin'. Prolly gonna get a little work done on "the secret idea that rocks your socks" and then bust out the extra stout with a little Dropkick Murpheys and some squaking away on the chanter. Not a bad way to spend a night, I think.

Oh... and uh... hehe... 2 days until the bash. Even if only the regulars show... it's gonna be the place to be. I'm getting all excited for the summer too. We went to the goose and took a look around the other day. Not a bad place and they got Black Butte on tap. I'd like to see what it's like when all the clans come together. There's like arms and legs, but lately only the torso's been getting together. Lotta people I still gotta meet. Hopefully alown gets out of wuss mode when that happens so he can partake of the fun as well... hehe...

Egh

You see what happens when you give an outlet to someone who shouldn't have one? Hippies man. Always full of ideas that don't make sense to anyone but them.

Asdlfkj!!!

Drunk bloggin sit hte st! I had soooo. much... yu know yu dont when the hot shichk sez... "we ant something horny and light". yu know... time to go. Brook so hot though. Even if she don't like udes... still so hot. I tipped her even she not serve me anthhing. You know? What you gonna do? I don't mind being there alone. It not so bad. Time fly fast. Legs tired cuz new biek. It a cruiser kinda thing, but make getting to mulligans so fast. And then I fell on the way home! And these gauys say "I fell your pain." Fuck them. though... what they know? Finally, the words stop thiningk. So quiet finally. I thin. Python good. Generic server kinda thing. It not... well it have script san dthingk about it. Generic scripts, anyone right and then bam... server for whatever. I reading Slauther house V. Good book that one. I read so much lately. Wtf up with RacheL? Lik ei'm not good enough. Not smart enough for her. Fuck that. I better than that. Fuck her and fuck people like her. Pretentious assholes anywah. What good it be if you read alot and dont' take the time to think about it? I read... think about it... realize it better to enjoy life rather than fucking read about it.

If god put people here... why the fuck he put us and nto think "They should enjoy it'? A higher being not able to enjoy what we have. You'd think that being would want us to enjoy life rather than contemplate it. All day we think about "what is it? what does it mean for us? why?' when it all it really is, is getting to be what we are and enjoying the fact that we get to feel things. Even alone at muligans, I realize that being out and enjoying people doinw what peopl do. That's good enough. That' slife. That's what being alive is about. enjoying what we see and feel, and think. Not waht fucking books we read or what movies we watch. That's just being an asshole. Thinking that somehow what we read and waht we think makes us better than the lowlifes. The lowlifes are part of it all too. Experiencing the subjectivity of it all. Deciding what it means to be alive. To feal and think about who we are and why we're here. That's what it's about... nto books and movies. Fuck books and movies. Right now is what we live for.

That's why I don't care so much about Rachel. She was one of them. A punk that didn't know she was one. Fucking anarchy in the UK. It's all about what the people around you think. The more I turn off the things upstaires, the more I realize it doesn't matter what they think. I'm having fun and I'm loving it. For the first time in so long... I'm having fun and lving it. What more from life could anyone want? Fun. Being happy. Thinking about who I am and what I want from myself. Me. Myself. Happy. that's whey we're here. Feeling things and being free. "Experienceing life subjectively". Sure... tomorrow, I'll read this and think, "what a fucking moron", but at least righ tnow... I'm happy. I think rachel is beautiful, and I think phoebe is beautiful, and I think caleb and jordan are beautiful. But what more in life could ther ebe? Just being happy... just taking advantage of the time we've got to see, and hear, and feel. To not feel, and to not think, and then the next day feeling and thinking, and being satisfied and content all at the same time. So artsy, fartsy in love with the gift we've been given in being alive. Fucking hippies may be hippies, but accepting it all is such a wonderful thing.

I been hi, I been low, I been happy, I been stoned. I'd never trade a moment, and in the end, I'd never give it all. For me, and me alone. Every moment, every thought. I like to think that if I make it to heaven, God will be there, and he'll say, like an eager puppy, "what was it like?" (being that He's a being who's never experienced life), and I'll say, "it was fun, God... it was fun". And he'll say, "that'll do pig... that'll do".

Half-Life 2

Worst ending ever. Fucking game was a bore. Somehow I ended up taking this damn long to finish the thing, only to be utterly disspointed in the end. Fucking waste. At least the pint of extra stout is still in the fridge... mmm....

I'm beginning to wonder more and more why it is that we choose to illegalize the things we do. Is a band of lethargic pot-heads really something we need to be afraid of? I think not. Hippies man. Either way, the countdown to the ol' birthday begins. Gonna get some good eats on sunday and hopefully find a way to get kicked out of mulligans on wednesday. Hehe... good times... good times.

Oh... yeah... one other thing. That movie... Hotel Rwanda.... never made it. Somehow that got left off here, and I know alown would think I was starting to man up if I didn't bitch about it here (and we can't have that happening). Thing is, I don't even know wtf is up with what happened. I'm not saying it's necessarily a bad thing (we did have some major fun here that night, even if it did leave TMFJW crying on the couch all night). Set me up for a few new hairs on the ol' chest. Wish I knew what happened, but it's like Phoebe says, "Treat a princess like a whore and a whore like a princess." I don't know how that applies, but she said it and she's cooler than me, so it must be good shit.

Chicks Dig Jerks

Bill Hicks is a god damned genious. A god damned genious, I say.

N-Gage QD

So I finally did it. I dropped Verizon. Fucking bullshit service they offer. What kind of stupid ass company do you have to be to hang onto analog service like it's going out of style? It's not like they offer to some obscure island that just can't get digital. Not to mention the astronomical prices for some of the worst service I've ever had the misfortune of using.

I traded up for Cingular and the N-Gage QD. I must say, it is quite a phone. I looked at service w/ T-Mobile using the Moto a630, but I realized that the a630 is a piece of shit wrapped up in a $300 phone. I obviously can't get the sidekick (cuz alown roll's that one) and the t-mobile free phones are some kind of awful. I did like t-mobile's prices though. In the end, the n-gage won out as a geeky cool phone at a reasonable price with really good service. Cingular's a bit more than T-mobile, but they have the best digital coverage around. Whatever it is that's keeping verizon analog is absolutely beyond me. GSM is where it's at.

Gonna go see Hotel Rwanda tonight. I do like me this girl...

Phones

I'm really not happy about this losing my phone thing. The cost of phones is so great, and the return is so little. Every phone that's in my price range is either a shit phone, or is cool but lacks some feature I'd like. I'm in such disarray on the issue that part of me just wants to stick with this shit samsung replacement phone and call it good... even though I can barely stand to use the thing. I'm looking at paying the early term. fee to get out of verizon's control and going with probably t-mobile and some of their cool phones. The n-gage is close to my price range, but I don't know if I could stand to use it... and it doesn't have a camera. The phones they do have that aren't shitty, but have a camera get bad reviews.

I really don't know what to do... and I'm thinking of going to the coop for lunch tomorrow. I'd like to see her again. hehe...

Damn it all

So after a nice dinner out with a girl I find to be quite nice, I head off for some fun with alown and his lady. They figure it'd be fun to go to one of them loud and annoying college bars that the kids like because I guess you can get laid there. The guy to girl ratio was way off, folks. Way off. But... they had nasty ass domestics for $9, all you can drink. I figured, what the hell, if I go as fast as I can, I can either puke it up or fall asleep... either way, I get to pretend I didn't just go from a great night to the place we were at.

Crazy thing of the night is... ol' Phoeb's and I ended up having a hell of a walk home (something about falling all over the place)... and I ended up losing my phone in the process. I've been very angry about this all day. I've had to suspend the account until I can get in to get a new phone tonight. Fucking waste of money, that one. Worst of all is that I don't have half the numbers in that thing written down anywhere. So very angry at myself for this one.

Checkers

Alown threw up!!!! hahaha!!!! 3 Guiness and the bastard throws up! hahaha!!!

Food Poisoning

Alown's girl got herself a case of the ol' food poisoning. Really feelin' for her right now. I was at the restraunt she thinks she got it from, but that was way back on saturday around noon. Seems like it woulda hit much sooner if that's where it came from. Even better is that I'm supposed to go with someone to the same damn place on thursday. Stay tuned though, there's some rumblings that alown's gonna explore the ramifications of odds, the lottery, and why the how and why of life in the general mish mash.

Oh yeah... reality check -- there's two circles of people (some might refer to this phenomenon as a set of cliques or social niches) that cohort around these parts. Well, two that are in any way relevant. These cliques have an ambassador and have been known to intermingle from time to time. Nothing big, just a few crossover issues and special cameo appearances here and there. Well... as it turns out, I found myself a nice little copy of DC-Marvel crossover classics here and seem to be getting drawn in. Slowly and akwardly for sure (as is to be expected from me, I manage to turn any normal conversation into an excercise in silence and silly questions).

Now, here's the thing. The roving bandit who's assumed himself the role of ambassador to the people has been through this issue somewhat. He's warned me good that it'll draw you in for the first couple of pages, but once the reading gets good, it may not be exactly what you thought it was. That's not to say it becomes an Image-Marvel crossover or anything, it just may not be the same quality you'd expect from such a comic. Natually, I don't wanna blow off this one, but I can't help but wonder how this could end up being. I'm not exactly the kind of person that is okay reading a comic in the store without buying it, taking it home, and cherishing it forever. Truth be told, I keep as many of my comics as I can. For as long as I can. This isn't always exactly what comics expect when they make themselves known to you at the store. Sometimes they just like to be put in the plastic bag and then returned to the shelf.

I don't know exactly what any of that means, because obviously it's not about comics. What I do know is that the last comic I bought came with warning sealing every part of it. I chose to ignore them and I got hurt when I opened it up. Maybe I'd be good to just flip a few pages in a couple of my favorite lines... maybe I'd be good just staying away from the store for a while altogether... maybe I'd just be good to read the warnings before opening the plastic. I don't know. I do like comics though... especially the ones with a couple squishy pages in them, just so you know you're getting your money's worth.

Boxers

Feeling good enough lately to try wearing boxers some again. Hope it doesn't end up causing me problems in the long run. They're just more comfortable, I think.

Item. Odd night last night. The very reason for having to bail in such a hurry is something so off-beat that it's kind of almost silly. How can someone do something like that? Silly kid that one. Kinda like the big brother I never had.

W3rd

As soon as I realised she wouldn't be there... I decided to drown myself. Fuck people. Fuck them all. Hard enough to get it out... but fuck them all. Can't walk, can't talk, can't think, can't breathe, fuck them all. I think I might have given myself a bit of a problem...

sad... hurt... stupid... fucked.

Wednesday!!!!

Wednesday's here!!!! Sweet merciful crap ass it's finally come! Here's hoping a week of being distracted will pay off. hehe...

Other news - A Scanner Darkly is a really good book. I hope they don't fuck up the movie. They actually picked really good people to play in it though (Woody Harrelson as Luckman! Robert Downy Jr. as Barris! Keanu Reaves as Arctor!!!! and last but not least, Winona Rider as Donna... *sigh*). I was really surprised at drawn in I got in the last hundred or so pages. Watching what happens to Arctor and then seeing why it is that he was allowed to get as far into things as he did. Unbelievable the ending of that book. Really sad though. You kind of go through the book like "Yeah man! Cool shit! Weird! Right on!" and then it's like "Wait... no... no that's not right. That can't be what's happening here. It can't..." and then it's over and you kind of feel a little for what P.K.D. went through in his generation.

Browny points also go to Betrayers of Kamigawa. No reason in particular because it's a small set, but still fun to play around with. Gonna start hitting the book for that block probably tomorrow night. Very exciting.

Gentoo (home)

Put Gentoo on the home system today. So far so good. It's true what they say though, all you get is about 0.01% speedup. I was really excited to see how xfce 4.2 runs with my setup here... sadly it's just as slow as at work. I'm not happy to see them bloating things. I'm also not happy to see that the composite xorg extension runs like shit.

Outside of that, the same distraction has been keeping me deep within a nice fog of confusion. Kinda makes me happy. Gonna hit the ol' Mulligans w/ alown's girl tomorrow. Give her a little support in trying to win the free tv I've enjoyed watching every time I'm in there (and apparently I'm the only one sad that it's going) while he does the work thing. Get yer fingers crossed for her.

Give It Here

I swear to god, if I could just have Flogging Molly with a god damned set of pipes on some songs, I'd be one step closer to being ready for the great down under. I can get very close with bands like Dropkick Murpheys (who seem to lean more towards the punk) and The Real McKenzies (who lean more towards the traditional). Something in the middle would be just damned great! But oh no... the god damned scots can't get a man like Dave to put something together. Some real bullshit that one.

On the other hand, I'm finding myself severly distracted all day. Probably will be until the next Wednesday (unless I get lucky, which isn't really my kind of thing) and from there it will probably be another distracted week until the next Wednesday. And so on until one day when I finally become a man.

Clarity

There really is nothing like the clarity that comes the next day. Realizing that yes, the world really does spin that way, and that yes, you really did leave your clothes all over the living room for no good reason. And somehow, through it all, you really did manage maintain control over your bowels.

A true moment of clarity indeed.

Gentoo and links

This is the first and *hopefully* only time I'll be making a post from links. As it turns out, compilers are crazy and C++ has some really shitty rules about library compatability. So in order to make our stuff compile, I need to use gcc 3.4, which can be a real pain in the ass to upgrade on a system like Slackware. That's why I'm using Gentoo right now, so that once I got the compiler upgraded from gcc 3.3, I could then re-compile the system no problem.

Turns out... it takes a really long time to do this. I'm currently waiting on the system recompile (and I only did an emerge -e system!). I'll probably recompile everything overnight tonight, but I'm a little worried that'll leave me stranded tomorrow. And once I get that done, I need to get some form of a window manager up and running. Egh....

Almost Forgot

Choke... interesting book, but I really need some dialog going to understand how I feel about the story. It's not like what happens in it is outside the realm of possible. I just... I don't know. I didn't really get into the beginning and the end went by so fast that I just couldn't sort through the meaning of things.

Bands You Need to Know About

Couple bands you people need to know about. Number one, I'm sure you already know, and that's Dropkick Murpheys. If you don't know, head down to your local Record Exchange, they'll be under "Underground". Pretty straight up Irish punk, only they use bagpipes rather than some of the more traditional Irish instruments of a band like Flogging Molly.

The other band that I know most haven't heard of is The Real McKenzies. Straight out the ghetto Canadian Scottish punk rock. Bagpipes in every song and some damn fine traditional music. Fuck the brits I always say. hehe...

Mom's b-day tomorrow. She's gonna freak when she sees what I got her. Absolutely gonna freak. You know how mom's are, they want you to spend your cash on yourself, but I figure since I can't repay the whole giving birth thing, the least I can do is hook her up with some tight home entertainment equipment. I'm not getting son of the year or anything, but it's better than par for me.

You Should Laugh Now

Paul

Wha?

It's good to see my state of mass confusion is still hanging around. Nothing like a night of breaking away at the safety bubble to really make a man consider the world in a new light. It's definitely not the place I thought it was yesterday...

Respect

I just lost a lot of respect for a guy I know. I thought he was better than this, and I told him this girl was far too cool to be such a dick to. Far too cool. And somehow this other girl ended up in my arms... which even though she's kind of that kind of girl... it was still cool. But that doesn't effect that the guy I thought was cool, is now very much not so much.

And in case you're wondering... wild turkey is not safe for the masses. So fuck off. And I'm really doing my best to remember the face of the other girl (whom I think may have decided I'm not worth anyone's time... being as how I can't really keep anything straight at the moment).

The Perfect Drug

Just threw on the Perfect Drug single (after watching A Clockwork Orange no less). Sure does take me back. Funny how no matter how hard you try to be the same ol' same ol', you always end up different from how you thought you would. I somewhat miss the days of parading around in my band T's acting like the world had it in for me and constantly worrying about who I might eat with the next day at lunch. These days I worry more about where I'll eat, how much it costs, and if it means I'll have to hit the ATM before buying rounds the next time we're all out. Seriously man, fuck all.

Here's a funny story for all the peeps (that's code for the two people that read this). Apparently whilst we were out on wednesday, a lovely lady decided I might be worth the wasted time to flirt with. Now seeing as how I'm an idiot and had taken severe actions to further that foolishness, I somehow managed to completely miss the occurance. That's right... I have absolutely no recollection of the events, what-so-ever! Yes, I remember the girl standing there, yes I remember her friend taking my seat post-journy to the can. And yet the proverbial hand on the shoulder and laugh at my nonsensicalness have escaped the fleeting grasp of my memory (for those keeping count at home, that means I inadvertadly blew her off). Tragedy indeed, sir! And then, in case my failure wasn't enough, alown tells me another girl whom I have but the slightest recollection of felt the need to inform him that I wasn't half bad to view that night... in my increasing stupor. Turns out she's a roommate of that sweetheart, Jenn. Somewhat akward I might say, but still good on the ol' ego. It all means nothing in the end (except to reaffirm my failures in life and to entertain all who partook of those moments), but it's a good story to share with my kids someday.

WOW

I really do feel for Blizzard on this. They've made a game that so many people love and trying to get behind, and they just weren't ready for it. The Penny Arcade guys keep talking about how they're pissed not because the servers are down, but because they want so much to be playing the game. I hope they get things sorted out soon. Blizzard is one of the few game companies that I have no problem giving my money to. They work hard on their games and it shows right through the shiny polish they make sure to put on them.

On Top

Right now, I'm on top of the world.

Anime

Samurai champloo is a damn fine anime. All the excitement of Cowboy Bebop, with the feel of a good samurai flick. Might have to get another of the DVDs for this one. Also finding myself quite partial to Wolf's Rain. Gonna be sad when that one leaves the CN.

Boring Friday

Let me tell you this. There's nothing worse than seeing someone cute, and then finding out that for the time being, the odds of you being in the same place at the same time in a manner that would allow for some kind of move... needs to wait until the snow melts. And not only that, but the person can't frequent the same nightly establishments as you. The damn pits, man.

In other news, the broadway is alright but it's kind of ho-hum. Nothing but shuffle board and pool, and since alown's crew don't frequent it just kinda stays dank. Being a third-wheel kinda person also dampens things, but the peeps are cool enough to make it not as bad as it could be. Cool peeps they are.

Work news now... I hate Solaris. I hate Solaris so much. It's stuck in 1995 and can't seem to find a way out. The ops guys where I work also suck the big one. They somehow managed to trash the CVS repository and fuck up the install of gcc on Solaris 9. I got gcc installed on Solaris 10 the second day I was using. That's fucked up, brother.

Boring People

Nothing worse than having 5 things compiling and nothing to do but wait... and everyone else is too busy to shoot the shit. Boooring...

Girl

I told alown I would do this, so I must. I wanna keep it a little on the down-low for some reasons I don't want to say, but are for everyone's good. There's this girl at a place I love to go. She doesn't know me, and is far too cool to give a crap. But something about her... I don't know what to say. Phoebe says I should just give it a try, and that just asking will score me points. I'm a wuss and all that jazz, but I'd really like to try. She's cool. Everything I hear about her and seeing her and everything adds up to everything. Worst that could happen is she says no and it's akward when I go to get some of my favorite food. I don't know. A friend of a friend of a friend in some way. I need a Sherpa to guide me on this. Man she's cool. And cute too.

On the plus side, Mulligan's was very good tonight. Started off a little akward, but by the end of the night, my gut hurt from laughing so much. Yes it's still early, but it's bed time for me. Maybe tomorrow when I'm not so tipsy, I'll run through everything again with alown and see if I'm just being stupid crazy. He said he knew I'd like her though...

Stop me if you've heard this one

Why does music sooth the savage beast? I don't know the answer to this - I only know the truth behind the rhyme. What once was a case of red rum, now jello on my tongue. My belly is full, and my beard is itchy. I ache with soreness and cough with delight. Nothing makes sense and I have a Dent in my head. Mish mash this, that, and the other. Really, I don't like fish but it's worth saying thanks and so long for it all.

I don't know where that shit came from. It dawned on me today that I have no idea how to play the guitar anymore. Funny thing is that I once had the skillz to pay the billz, but I'll be damned if the ol' brain has what it takes to create. Never has I guess. More to the point, I do like music and I have a decent understanding of how it behaves, I just can't seem to put 2 and 2 together to make 4.

I think I'm gonna grow my hair out. Alown says I should go for the Alan Cox Unix look, but I don't think I could handle keeping that clean. Had a hankering to change the color again, but I don't think that goes well in the professional world. Also seem to have learned that the problem with growing up, is that when you finally do and people expect you to get up early and be responsible all day... it doesn't leave much time to do fun things. Even now, at midnight, it's past my bedtime. Past... my... bed time. Think about that. Midnight. Past bedtime. Ugh...