Seriously guys

I don't feel right inside. I see the man, but something is wrong with the look in his eyes. I read something a while ago... and it mentioned something about how if you no longer recognize the man in the mirror, it's time to go back and find out where he went. What do you do if going back is something you aren't in control of, and going forward scares you more than any other thing ever has? I... think I'm drifting... not sure of when or where to grab hold again. I don't know what to do... I feel like I've never known freedom, and the cost of the freedom I need is the loss of the person I've been up until now. Can you file a missing persons report for yourself? At least the anonymity of the internet and the sanctity of the few people that read this will keep my secret safe.

Let me close that leaking hole up with my favorite quote (but let me say thanks for indulging my seriousness for a moment first)... "Screw you guys, I'm going home."